One Day At A Time
~ PROGRESS ~
” … I was taught that the way of progress is neither swift nor easy.”
I have always been the queen of quick fix, so if I wanted something to happen, it had to happen today if not yesterday. So coming into the program was very hard for me, in that for the first time I have had to realise that recovery is not an overnight thing. For a perfectionist like me, that has been a very hard lesson to learn, in that I don’t have to have perfect recovery. My journey in this program has been an up and down one, with many slips along the way, and everytime I have slipped, I have had to remember that I may think I’m a failure, but I’m only a failure if I fail to pick myself up. In the past if I made a mistake, I was a total and utter failure, but I know now that all I have to do each time is to pick myself up, dust myself off and start over.
The other thing I’ve learned in the program is that I also always need to remember where I came from, and when I look back, I can see the progress I have made. My self esteem is growing, and even though I still seem to slip back into the old character defects from time to time, they are nowhere near as bad as in the past. I am able to forgive people whom I thought I would never be able to forgive, and I make amends whenever the need arises, and as a result my relationships with people have improved dramatically.
One Day at a Time . . .
May I remember that in this program, it is always progress and not perfection that counts.
~ Sharon ~
You know how you win a marathon? It’s not about finishing ahead of somebody else on the course? It’s not even about beating a previous score/time you may have held in the past. You win, by making it to the end, without quitting.
Progress. Not. Perfection.
You strive always for progress, one foot in front of the other, not faster than the other guys, not better than you were last year, but better than you were yesterday.Progress is not lineal. The idea of perfection is and always will be a straight shot to the end. Progress is like crossing Canada by road.
You go over, then up, and around and off that way and a little bit south to avoid the other bits, then wiggling through that rocky marshy piece, and swing wide low through the middle end, finally to push up to the easternmost points but you have to jump ship to finally get there. Progress is like that. Pick the end, pick the direction, but focus on the next step, one day at a time, one step at a time, you will move forward, it might not be straight forward, but it will be progress.
So, to win, you get up and you start, continuing forward, let of of the negative, learn from it if you can, and cherish the positives, keep those memories close, but keep going, always one more step, always progress.
Cheers and DFTBA
Duke of Chaos